Written During a Sunrise

Well, I've got these problems - these struggles that I have been experiencing every day.

I am desperate.  I am exhausted.  I have been expecting God to simply take them away.

But now I realize that these problems have to be faced,

So I bite my lower lip and I clench my fist just a bit, 

And I wait apprehensively, no, thankfully for all of the pain that lies ahead of me.

You see, if we never encounter pain, an enemy, or a problem,

Then how can we sincerely appreciate our aspired freedom?

That is such a powerful word... "Freedom", can I really comprehend it?

"FREEDOM!" can I truly experience it?

I think so.  I hope so.  You know what - I know so!

I've seen so many mornings, so many afternoons, so many evenings, and so many sunsets.

And so many of those days I have felt like I'm in bondage.

Let's take nearly 21 years and multiply them by 365,

I'm not a mathematician but I know that the number is really high.

Speaking of not being a mathematician, there are so many things that I'm not.

But people see them, not me and not my heart.

I'm not just a student.  I'm not my job.  I'm not my family.

I'm not something I love, something I hate, or anything I'm indifferent about week after week.

I'm not my friends.  I'm not my enemies.

I'm not the superficially beautiful and painfully untalented actors on MTV.

I AM SIMPLY... me.

And now that I know how I am I can become a part of something that is bigger than me.

Now that I know who I am I can really laugh, I can really love, I can really dance, and I can really cry.

I'm so sick of so many nostalgic memories from my childhood.

I'm ready to contemplate, embrace, and begin my journey of manhood.

I'd be lying to myself if I said that it will be easy - this journey of mine.

But it's okay, steady on.  I'll walk this bumpy road one day at a time.